It is immensely difficult knowing what you once had, && that it can never be the same way again because of one little mistake

I think the only reason everyone holds on to memories so tightly is because memories are the only things that don't change when everything && everyone else does

They ignore eachother
&& Look the other way
But, in the back of their minds
They knew;;
It wasn't supposed to end this way

Tears have come && tears have gone.
My emotional torment still lives on.
The scars right here upon my wrist,
are what have helped me get through this.

Behind this innocent smile of mine, lay words that go unsaid.
Words of longing, love, anger, && hate, all repeating inside my head

Things are going crazy && I'm not sure who to blame.
Everything is changing && I don't feel the same.
I'm slipping through the cracks of floors I thought were strong.
I'm trying to find a place where I feel, like I belong.

You don't understand me && you never will..
So don't start that bull about knowing how I feel.

I don't know what I'm doing anymore.
I don't know what I wanna see.
My world use to be worth living for,
&& now it's hard enough just to be me

Just because her eyes don't tear
Doesn't mean her heart doesn't cry.
&& just because she comes off strong Doesn't mean there's nothing wrong.

You say you understand..
But, do you know what it's like to want to die?? How it hurts to smile?? How you try to fit in, but you can't?? How you hurt yourself on the outside, to try to kill the pain on the inside??