A day, a night, a setting sun
All mean the same to me
A sigh, a tear, a forceful smile
It just wasn't meant to be

A joy, a laugh, a new born hope
Play tricks and scheme and lie
More sorrow, dread, convulsive sobs
They turn when all hope dies

You're the one who treats me like dirt;
But in the end, you'll be the one who winds up hurt

I hope you know I really hate you...
It's just that every time you smile
It's like I've fallen in love all over again

Even though I smile back, once you're gone I whisper three words I really shouldn't say...

...I hate you.

I cannot believe the happiness I felt while I was living through your abuse.

Your kind words used me
Your caring looks abused me
But if I could travel back to any time
I'd go back to the time when you were mine

I wish you knew how much I hate you...
It's just that, when you're standing in front of me laughing, it's hard to ignore your presense
And even harder not to smile

Even with hell burning all around me, I still keep my sight set on my one and only goal:

Death.

And as the blade cuts deeper, I know I will not be able to cover up the scar and erase the memories from my mind...