If no doesnt mean never, why do i feel like it will never happen?

So every night I cry,
because it'll never be "you and I"

(from my new pome "you and her" please read and comment)

I watched in silence
knowing that NOTHING would stop you.
I felt the sting of warm tears filling my eyes.

this is from my pome called "the happy angery book (long story dont ask)"

Robert: tell me what im suposed to do with all these leftover feelings of you. cuz i dont kno.

What kills me most is you could've stopped it. If you stopped it i wouldn't have these scars on my arms.