Today seems to be the perfect day, to start fresh, begin a new, and pretend I never loved you

I tell myself that I' m over it and over you again and again. Unfortunately I' m going on week two and still it' s not true.

I know in truth that I will feel better, once the pains washed away by the tears, and my eyes learn to hide these fears. I know in truth that this is my hearts final trial, and even if it kills me, I am going to smile.

Sometimes I just wish I could get you out of my head, and forget all that was said.

And the tears began again,
From a text message sent by an @$$40L3 and a so-called friend

And to both of them I'm just some toy.

Locked myself in the bathroom, saw the pills sitting on the shelf. Turned on the shower, blared the music, hid my pain behind the scars made by the glistening blade, but it was never enough.

&& I really hope she realizes she was the only thing that kept me alive this weekend

1:30 a.m
Me: No matter what happens I will always love you you can't leave me..
Him: I promise I won't

7:35p.m the same day... He comitts suicide

7:37 p.m I feel like doing the same... What am I suposed to do without him here?

I'm stil sitting by my phone waiting for him to call... Even though my mind knows he ' s gone... my heart ' s just not there yet