I dont want to tell you everything about the way I really feel and how Iam.

But I dont want to fool you into thinking Im a decent, normal, happy person.

If you honestly knew how I felt, Youd forgive me.
I dont mean to hurt you or push you away.
Im sorry for my lack of affection towards you.
I wish I was her... So you wouldnt hate "Me".

I hate that you're with her. But Im happy for YOU. Because I knew all along that you deserved better than ME.

Your life was supposed to end when I left you.

Like mine did.

Oh sweety, dont be so naive;
you know i wont ever been happy for you & her.

Im waiting for the day when I wake up and don't hate myself.

She says swallow it and move on. Yet another repressed memory.
This can't be good for me.

Now you said you loved me, but Im just wondering,
That maybe you'd be better off with out me?
Has that thought ever crossed your mind,
Or are your intentions as pure as they seem?

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This confrontation
Sees us parting ways
We built a structure out of lies and set it sail
And wonder why it sank

- In Fiction lyrics

Its so sad... im so selfish...
because id rather you be .miserable. with me
than for you to be .happy. with someone else...

im sorry. </3