STOP joking about cutting
STOP judging me
STOP looking at me like an outsider
STOP pretending to care when im around and then talking behind my back

your making me feel worse, your becoming one of them, i just cant anymore, so STOP

You sit there in silence, then start talking once i leave
you stare at me from 5 feet away, then talk about me there

sooner than later im going to snap, i will crumble, my blood will be pouring out, yet you will still be talking about me.

I can feel people staring at me.
i can feel how they look at my arms
i can hear the whispers from others
i can feel the pain of their voices

yet you do nothing to help me?

Oops i wore short sleeve instead of long
oops i dyed my hair black to hide my face
oops i i didnt wash off my tear stained face
oops i didnt clean the blood
oops i cried to loud

-- how can these all possibly be mistakes...

That single tear drop
that one that drowns my heart
the one that scares me.
that very tear drop that has forced me to
do something i have never wanted to
that single tear drop is now red.

Messages from you saying, i wont rest untill your happy, is there anything i can do to make you happy? we will be friends for ever i love you your my best friend. did you think they would make it all better? Leave her...then id be happy

To be happy again; a phrase i would do anything for. a phrase others take away with out care. a phrase that is so easy to advise to someone. one that is so hard to follow. happy, is now how i feel when i sit in the dark, and only see red

If you really wanted me to be happy... you wouldn't be the one who took that feeling away.

I trust with my feelings
i trust with my cuts
i trust with my heart
you kill with out care
i cut with out feeling

How hard is it to take a hint? ending everything with ... love you Buddy, i love you (as a friend that is) you dont have to worry about me you have another to worry about. why cant you understand that I LOVE YOU not as a friend but more?