There I Am, in The Middel Of A Group Of People, And Im Crying, But No Can Ever See It.

They Say You Can Be Your Own Bestfriend,
But Would Your BestFriend EVER Think Of Killing You?

I try to find myself
I find the stranger trapped inside
And I'll take one more step away
From the face I used to recognize

Your life is like a rainbow,
you start from one side, and try to get to the other.
But every time you take one step it gets further away.

Oh I could never forget you,
Your every scar on my arm and wrist.
I think of you every day.

I look so pretty on the outside,
But i feel my soul is dark.

The scars are the stories i can't tell you.

Each blood drop on that knife helps me know im alive.

I am not who you think i am. I am really myself. Sorry to disappoint but i am living for me not for who you want me to be.

I see it outside when its cold windy dark and gray i wonder if thats how my heart and soul looks every single day