I laugh-when I need to cry,
I say"It's okay"-when I'm dying inside,
and I don't say a damn thing
when I want to say that I love him
because I know he won't understand it.

Why don't you stop acting like an idiot for just one second and let me show you my love and make you feel that way too?

And I never tohught that I would love you
I never thought you wouldn't love me
You still see me as your best's friend baby-sister
But, I'm not a baby, I am the one who loves you most.

Even if I pretend I'm not hurt-I am
Even if I'm smilin-in the inside I'm cryin'
Even if I make you think that your words are not hurting me
You will never know that with your actions are killin' me.

I wanted to tell you
to show you
I never meant to hurt you
I just wanted you to know
The way I feel when you're hurting me.

Take it all back now
just get away from me and my life
forget that i exist
and forget about my love
the things you do are killing me
so i don't ever want to see your face again!
GOODBYE

I'd rather have a terrible ending than a terror without end.

I used to know what I want
I used to be so strong
Now I am an alcoholic freak
Without any future of anything

I am only spinning in this freaky universe
I don;t know where to go

Sometimes I wonder where the love has gone
Sometimes I want to scream your name out loud and clear
It is like in my heart you've always been
But, it was too hard for me to see and feel

Why aren't you able to feel me?
Why am i not allowed to hold your hand?
Is it so hard to love me?
Only enough to stay with me forever??