Why is it that everytime I think I'm taking a step in the right direction it end up the wrong one?

Why is it that everytime i reach out i get knocked back down...even harder than i first did

Please Daddy wont you love me??

I talk to the stars wishing they were you...but guess what...
they are absent too

I dare you to care,
I dare you to trust me,
I dare you to love me.
......
Are your up to it?

...Once I Ran To You Now I Run From You...

Every night i talk to the stars pretending its you.. it acts just like you tho.. far away and never replies to my questions

Will you miss me when im gone?

I look to see what made me so sad, and all i see is you and what you caused

These tears are falling faster than ever,
but no body sees them.