Why do I feel so alone when all my friends are near?

I work and I slave yet still confine untill I'm in my grave.

When sleep is not near.
When your fears are enclosing you.
When you have no where left to run.
Only then, will I be able to help you.

I just can't go one living with the facade I put up. I lied. I'm not fine, I need a change.

Im trapped by the me who is not me, ive doomed myself to live in isolation.

Off I go, Into the world.
Why dont you even try to hold me?
Cry for the loss.
If you tried you could make me stay.
But you wish me a fond, clear eyed, farewell.

Talk to me with emotion.
Listen to me with honesty.
Look at me with love
Look away from me with discust.

We lose all of our individuality once we enter a crowd. we are no longer people. We are just a crowd.

Wind slashes the car.
Rain stands in our way.
"Mommy, how much
longer?
Until we get home?"
The car jolts...

(Thoughts of a paranoid me (prt 1) Take a look?)

I sit in total
isolation.
Desolation.

(from ''Here I sit'' take a look?)