Mom, how can you STILL be with someone who tears me down when I need to be brought up? And someone who told me, "Well, just kill yourself then." When I said I wanted to die.

And I don't tell you most of the things that go on in my life, or things that I want to do. Because you will just shoot them down. Just as fast as the words come out of my mouth.

Many of my issues of lacking self-confidence and happiness and motivation comes from you telling me that I can't do anything right. And you haven't had confidence in me for as long as I can remember.

If only you knew that the reason why I give up is because you bring me down...

There's so much more, and you'll never understand the half of it. And it's probably best you don't; it would hurt you.

What's the point of even being here if no one, including myself has the belief that i can do anything right. The belief that I can make it. They are right, I can't. I am just a waste of flesh. I can't do this anymore.

I am always myself, but never my whole self.

I want to live in a house where i don't have to walk on egg shells to avoid an argument.

It seems like know matter how many times we argue or talk about the same issue, you never get the point I am trying to get across.

Achievements come in small packages and inside are big opportunities.

2007 ek