Do u kno what I hate? I hate how much I love u, I hate it cause I know Im strong enough not to love u. I could stop myself if I wanted to but I dont want to. That would mean giving up hope & thats the 1 thing Ive never let go of & Im not about to now!

I smile and laugh so no-one can see
Exactly who is the real me
Tears in my eyes & rolling down my face
Invisible paths that they continue to trace
They fall still but I smile again
Hiding away my secret pain

I know I love you,
I don't think you do,
I won't tell anyone how I feel
Some things I just don't want to be real

Why are you trying to fix me?
I'm not broken!!!

When things get shit
Remember you're a tough old git!!!

I'm moving up, moving on
I still love you but now I'm gone

I think 2 much, which is bad, cos when I think I analyse, when I start analysing I cant stop and overanalyse everything! I can create something from nothing and its just not fair!!!

By analysing u & me I got us but there is no us so what should I do?

I'm in control of my emotions not the other way round, if I can't have him then I shall stop myself wanting him! No matter how painful it may be to do, I'll still do it!!!

Maybe for a minute, just a little while
I wish I could have something more intimate than a smile

It's just So unfair isn't it? I want him SO much! So much that everytime I see him it hurts more & more, I know I should look away but I can't I won't let me!!!