I just told you to go away,
Because I can't handle myself today.

I'm so over this, but I'm not over this at all. I know that these feelings are going to get me into trouble. I'll be crushed when I fall.

I'm trying my best to keep my hopes high,
But all of the time I wonder if I'll survive.
Last time I fell into nothing but sadness,
I can't hope again to make it past that kind of madness.

*From my poem: Revolving Door

It's dangerous, dark, and deep,
Something I will always keep.
Only one other person knows it; they're dead,
The secret was so awful; they killed themselves instead.

Remember me happy,
Like I always wanted to be.

Everything is caught in a haze,
It coats everything in my nights and days,
It's causing a craze,
I can't take it anymore,
It's like I'm a rat following a trap in a never ending maze...

Everything inside of me is screaming and ripping apart, I can feel my lungs filling with blood and gore. My whole life is being torn apart. Why do I smile then? Do I honestly not care?

Everything in life is a blur,
A welling disease that has no cure.
Letting it in hurts,
Locking it out is so much worse.
It is getting so hard to keep breathing because everything around me is so misleading.

Drown me in that clear drink,
Cause I don't even want to think.
If it doesn't make my mind still,
I'm gonna scream loud and shrill.
I FEEL LIKE I"M DYING INSIDE,
ALL I HAVE LEFT IS A AN EMPTY SOUL, HEART, AND MIND.

I breathe and move in pre- written motions.
All of the time trying to hide my emotions.
Please somebody end this misery,
When I look around pain and sadness is all I see.