I scream because I don't know what else to do,
I'm playing a game I know eventually I'll lose.
I try to stay happy and plaster smiles,
The sadness ignores my efforts and slowly piles.

You could never love me the way that I love you,
I know I have to let go of you soon.
The problem is I want to hold on,
Even though I now know you're a con

You fill me with lies,
When I find out the truth... you ignore my cries.
You treat me so bad,
I keep trying to convince myself you'll be the best I've ever had.

You fill me with lies,
When I find out the truth... you ignore my cries.
You treat me so bad,
I keep trying to convince myself you'll be the best I've ever had.

I just told you to go away,
Because I can't handle myself today.

I'm so over this, but I'm not over this at all. I know that these feelings are going to get me into trouble. I'll be crushed when I fall.

I'm trying my best to keep my hopes high,
But all of the time I wonder if I'll survive.
Last time I fell into nothing but sadness,
I can't hope again to make it past that kind of madness.

*From my poem: Revolving Door

I'm lonely but I'm afraid.
I need someone to talk to...
I just can't talk to you.
What if you they think I'm weird?
What if they think I'm pathetic?
What if they leave just like you left too?