What should i do to lessen this feelings for you?

If by chance we meet,
i'll ask you this once...
do we still have chances?
and if ever you say no,
can i just hug you so tight
while telling you this "i miss you so much"
'til my tears stops from falling???

Was it all an illusion and an obsession...???
i just thought it is still love all the while,
until now...

Showing what you really feel is not bad
but judging out my feelings is non of your business anymore...

Why can't you say anything?
my mind is so empty... and still waiting for your responce. is that too much for you???

Can you tell me that i am not wasting my time?. that i can pursue waiting for you, i mean for us being together again?

Ur so cold as ice,
but knowing that i should be the one who's to blame...
i don't have the right to complain.
this myt be my punishment now
it hurts me more than ever before...

I really hate to see someone's crying
because it really make me cry as well
and remember all my past...
it's the strangest thing in me...

No matter how much i try my best to hide this feelings, just can't hide it myself... i'm dying inside full of pain and wants to explode...

If being happy is too much for me,
then is being sad is what i really deserve?
well honestly i endure it slowly, being sad so seems to be my destiny...