Ex called me tonight.
Asked me: Are we still gonna runaway together?
I couldn't help but heartly sob after that, thinking of all the guys I wanted to do that with and the one that made me happiest I'll never forget.

It is not the exterior that matter in the long run it truly is what is inside that makes the person attractive or not.

Advice on teacher crush:
hes not looking at you like that - your imagining it - your teenage hormones are loose.
..How do you know?
I don't seek anything I just think hes very attractive.

"Everytime I get down on my knees, I think of how you must have proposed to her.
Knowing a couple months ago we spoke of how one day that girl would be me"

My problem: I allow people in the past to affect my daily life.
I wish I could end it.

"I make fun of myself:
Asking myself when is the wedding.
Knowing there won't ever be one anymore.
=(

"That's like telling me its over when your not really telling me."

I now see his true colors and they are not beautiful.

He's no longer around to listen to me read my poetry or read my quotes upon life.

Is it bad to not fear death?
Because sometimes I just don't care or not fear
And yes, I am depressed.