Im not bullet proof :(

Im waking up and im alive

I cant be mad
i cant be pissed
yu have other friends and another life
yu can have fun without me
but im here
not there
im not in yur life </3

Hes so far away....i cant see yu but only a few days every six months....how can i know what yu say yu mean..yu only can talk to me by phone....how do i know yur not lying??

&& the blade slides across my wrist
because of what yu said
i start to let yu into my life
but the second i do yu put me down
why cant i just make yu proud for once??

Maybe yu'll listen when im lying in a coffin

&& i thought i was over you
i was so happy and proud
but then i had a dream and yu were there
when will yu leave me alone??

I have someone new in my life thats says hes going to wait for me.....but why arnt i happy yet??

I found someone new. he treats me like yu should of. he loves me for real. he doesnt lie to my face. but now yu wont leave. yu say yu need me. but i need him

He killed me
i built myself back up
i wasnt much but i was still alive
i met someone new
they healed me even more
but now he wont let me go with him