...some things never get better

And no matter how hard i try
I can never make this right
And my better judgement tells me
To give up and end this fight...

What do I do..
When I find myself wanting to die?

^^April Sixth

I hope we are together
For time and time to come
Cause I need you in my life
To change who I’ve become...

--From my poem..."You Are The Perfect Guy" =/

I just dont see the point anymore.... =(

I think i'll go anti-love
really, who needs it ..?
Butterflies in the stomach
and hearts skipping beats
-- that can't be too s.a.f.e

...my friend sent this to me
....and i really like it... :/

Ive tried to go on like I never knew you
Im awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all Im going to be is incomplete...

*incomplete-Backstreet Boys.. :\

I've tried to fake a smile
I've tried to hide this pain
But whats the point in trying
When theres nothing you can gain

So I don't know what's real and what's not
Always confusing the thoughts in my head
So I can't trust myself anymore
Im dying again

**evanescense i forget the song...

There are only so many tears you can cry,
so much pain you can handle
and so many breaths you can take...

...didnt write this...but i like it..