I pay the reaper every night with drops of blood praying everytime that it will be enough for him.

I realized soething today
I am beautiful
i am a beautiful
letdown
I am a beautiful
Mistake
I am a beautiful
Disaster
I am Beautifuly
Me!!!

Never pay the reaper with love only

I cant find my self to leave my bed...
but yet i never dream....

And when i die do not bary me with a downward fist.....
but with an upward bloody wrist....
not to make the gods mad....
just to show them all the pain i had....

It hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time

Here hold my gun.....i think ill wait another day

I touch a burning candle i can still feel the pain
cut me with a knife and its all the same
you can't tell me the pain that i feel
truly isnt real
my heart will still beat
but love it will never meet

~*i'm writing the story of my life every day....and today i am wrighting the last page*~

Tonight i cry for a beautiful suicide