The only reason I havent killed myself is because of you....Im not giving you the pleasure of spitting on my grave.

Its horrid when someone you think is your friend is so blind that they cannot see how much pain you're in.....But its worse when they know and ignore it.

Rivers of tears pour from my eyes,
Fountains of blood flow from my wrist.
Oceans of lies are drowning me,
This is water with a twist...

So many nights spent in my bed
Crying and alone.
So many nights spent weeping in the dark
Scared and on my own.

But that will all end soon
Im close to my final breath.
As I fall asleep for the last time I am calmed
By the sweet lullaby of death.

Today I looked in the mirror and thought to myself, how come someone can be in so much pain and nobody even notice?

You've hurt me one time too many,
So now I take this knife.
I slash my wrists and whisper,
Thanks for ruining my life...

Dont know how to laugh,
Dont know how to be alright.
Dont know how to make things better,
Dont know how to win the fight.

Dont know how to cope,
Dont know how to survive.
Dont know how to carry on lving,
Dont know how to stay alive.

Life will always get you down,
It will find a way somehow.
It is guarenteed to turn against you,
So might as well give up now.

All alone, she starts quietly weeping,
She watches as the puddle of crimson starts seeping.
A bloody tattered mess is whats left of her arm,
All because of her addiction to self harm.

What happens when the one that you love,
Is the ones who cheats and lies?
When they hurt you so very much,
And become the one you despise?