I used to rely on self-medication,
I guess I still do that from time to time.
But I'm getting better at fighting the future,
"Someday you'll be fine.."
Yes, I'll be just fine.
-MCS
*thanx kimberly and
xxfaded_silencexx

There's a voice in my head telling me why I should hate you,
But I hate myself instead.
There's a pair of dead eyes in the mirror looking back at me.
I guess its wrong to live life so lifelessly.

-Bayside

Scars are tearing open along my palms and knees.
I guess thats what I should get for crawling back at your feet.
And now I'm feeling so down, that there's no God above.
No mercy for a soul thats just way too fvcked up.

-Bayside

" i would rather have had one touch...of her hand...one kiss...of her mouth...then an iternity without it."

-from City of Angels

- So long -
~BiItch you did me so wrong~
* I dont wanna go on*
~Living in this world~
-Without you-
...Eminem in his song Kim...

So dangle my life on a string peaced to a bloody needle
sowing my broken heart through and through
And ill be dying underneath your eyes of hatred, smiling
Because I'm killing myself to kill you...

-from my Killing Mysef to Kill You poem...

~dont smile at me anymore
it kills me every time
to see myself pushing you away
when all i want is for you to be mine~

The candle is bleeding
Slowly falling down
But hidden is its pain
Beneath the fire’s gown

Never will they see
What is truly going on
Until the flame dies
When the mystery is gone

-thought for a new poem

So ill smile in the dark
Alone as I have always been
Only slightly feeling the burn
Of my razor spread skin

-from my new poem "Second Time (Evil)"

The hurt inside is fading
This shit's gone way too far.
All this time I've been waiting
I'm not, I'm not a horre
and oh I can not give anymore.
-forgot who sings this...