You knew what was going on
You knew i was hurting
You knew i was cutting
You knew i was crying
YOU KNEW!
So why didnt you Care?

>To:MyMom

Please dont ask to be strong today
This is my weakest hour
My weakest thought
I am leaving this dreadful life

I'm crying- please help
I'm cutting- please help
I'm not eating- please help

See i did ask for help you just didn't see it

My body shaking
my hands moving
my head spinning
the urge to cut has come over me
and is uncontrolable

Hiden thoughts
Hiden emotions
Tearing her apart......

I wanna know.....
why is that so hard?

TRUTH IS...
If he cant see how wonderful you are
He's not worth it......

I want you but if you dont make a move I might get tired of waiting for something thats not gonna happen...

I dont know what to do to take back the things i did
i cant to take back the things i said
i just hope you know i am beating my body blue for it

I realize that you dont love me you need me only for you...
is everything always about you?