I Am Afraid I am falling out of love.

I have no idea what to do I cherish him so much and couldn't breathe without him but i feel as though i have mixed emotions?
I want him when he's gone and want him to go when he is here, this has all occured in the past week...
My nan passed away maybe it is because i need time alone?
Or i just feel bad because i have lost a loved one and dont want to lose him..

Also, he has been saying he wants to propose to me next year and last night he goes to me maybe the year after next :(
And I rung him before and asked where he was blah blah blah then we hung up and he didnt say I love you that was at 7:30 pm and it is now 9:30 pm and i asked him to call later and still no call he usually calls at 9.
And ud think he would just get off at my house and come see me eh..

There are sexual problems as well...

none in the past 3 weeks..
only 3 or 4 times

Everytime I try or he tried he says some lame excuse such as, I need to cut my fingernails, Umm You went out lastnight you were with men, when I wasnt, or It doesnt feel right. or I dont want to have $$$ with you...

Actually, I think a lot of marriage councilors highly suggest that you remain sexually intimate in a relationship, even if you're having emotional problems. I know you're not married, but it could be applied here, as long as your relationship is committed and has been stable. I think the reasoning is that that sort of physical intimacy breaks down a lot of walls, and you might feel more able to be open with your partner, in a loving manner and work through some problems, in that kind of atmosphere. Plus it's a stress-reliever, I suppose, which could also help in tense situations.

Wanting sex even when times are rough doesn't make you a sex-crazed pervert. Maybe you're just craving the familiarity and connection that you two had. Or maybe you want sex because... well... most people want sex, especially with the people they love.

Yea you probably just need your space and time, and you don't want to get to close to him because your afraid that u will lose him too. let him know how you feel, because he's guna get confused when u push and pull him away

Excuse me there is nothing wrong or bad with me, he is not like that he understood why we had not been intimate in the past week.
He is not just a root you know, if he were would he still be with me or me with him?
He's not like that, he is a man, and he believes in shivalry, (Protect women)
He would never hurt me, Maybe with words but it is pure honesty.

We spoke about it last night he got very upset about it, I have never brought a man to his knees before I thought he didn't love me anymore and I asked him, and I was serious he took everything, and listened without arguement.
I do want to marry him.
8 months is not a long time and yes I am 18, but my pop was married at 18, to a 24 year old they got married within 3 months.
So if you are all thinking that..
Think again!
I am rather offended that you would say I have "bad thing about me"
I am the most caring, loyal, genuine person you would ever know, he might be an ass sometimes but I have to look at his good qualities.
But thank you all, we had beautiful SEX LAST NIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!

And it is not the sex i missed it was having a man to hold me and cherish me, like he used to but it's like a domino effect i fall over he falls over, I head the other way so does he, It's not like he didn't know we were distant we talked for 3 hours about it..