I feel like I'm losing him...

Okay, here's the whole story.

We met online on a video game. He was about to commit suicide (I didn't know this at the time). I asked him if he needed help, he said no. Next day, I log in, he's still online. I ask him if he needs help, he asks for an escort to another zone. Two weeks later I get his life story. By this time I've fallen in semi-love with him. Two weeks after that we start talking on the phone. July of that year, he tells me he is in love with me. By winter we have plans to live together. By the next summer I find out that he had a dream about our daughter. By winter I have imagined our entire lives together in my head. By spring we are irrevocably in love. He lives in another state. We've never met in person.

By today? He is the neighborhood patrol. He makes a round every night, sneaking out of the house to look for anything suspicious. Fighting anyone who threatens the safety of people in the town. Every night I try to spend time with him (via the phone). Every night he has to leave before we can spend any time together. Every day something happens and his emotions are jumbled. He gets angry at anything.

I was trying to learn clairsentience so I could project emotions/feelings to him for his birthday. I am supposed to be writing a chapter for a book we are working on together. He found out I was taking "the damned online Wicca class" (the website is witchschool.com) instead of writing the story. I let him vent at me about the story and school and everything that he's been dealing with. Then I started crying and I told him that I wanted to try clairsentience mixed with projection as his birthday gift. He softened up a bit. We still love each other to death. One thing we argue about all of the time is that we are going to die protecting one another, but neither of us wants the other to die for him/me. It's all very complicated, but I feel like our relationship is slipping away. He's informally proposed to me, so it isn't him fearing anything. I accepted, so it isn't me fearing anything either. I think it's just a huge build up of stress. With school coming it'll only get worse on his end, but I take every day as a new life, so I'm fine as long as he is.

Anyone have any help they can offer?

If oyu feel the relationhship losing its grip then you have to mabye be more into what he's saying and stuff, be cute and nice. and be flirty

if it deosnt help, tell him whats up. (hard i know, but its better then just letting go)

Thanks. I'm still holding out, and he knows what the problem is. We're both working on it, and I think today it might start healing up, thanks to a friend of his. But that's a big maybe. I have faith in her though. She said I would fall in love with him all over again. I hope so. Thanks again!

Your very welcome! =]

Thanks, and sorry about my age, I hadn't updated it. I'm 15 and he's 17. He's coming up when he graduates as the plan goes for now.

Thankfully, everything is fine now. I found out his random depression wasn't my fault, which is good. He saw a doctor about it and he's got chronic depression and is supposed to be put on meds eventually. He's doing better now that he knows I think.

Ummm...also, both of us talk every morning now at 5:30 my time and for at least a little while after school even if I'm grounded from the phone and computer. Our relationship is thriving now and we're both starting to discuss when we can see each other. It might be this coming summer or next Christmas break, maybe not until the summer after that, but I'm still regarding it as soon.

I guess I didn't realize I'd left out some crucial info when I originally posted :D oops.