Self Harm

Do you do it? If so, why do you, and what goes through your mind while doing it? ...Just trying to make conversation with someone, and this is something I could talk about forever

ok. i do it to try and escape my memories of my past.. and how i feel like i' crap....when i do cut...i don't think of anything...my mind is too busy focusing on the blade

Personally, I do it because I when I am down, when I have been pushed too far, I need the pain, it gives something to concentrate on other than that is making me down. I want the pain to go away, want to feel like I exist, that I might actually feel alive if I feel pain like that, see my own blood dripping from me. I didn't have a rough childhood, it was actually pretty good....but I cut once...just once...and it was a better feeling than any type of drug high could ever get me, and now it's a major addiction.

i know.....the funny thing is when poeple say quote, you should talk to a psychiatrist end quote....it doesn't help...especially when there really is no reason to cut...and if there is a reason....all they do is state what your problem already is or give it a name....depression....or something adn lock you up...so why go?

seriously...you should see a picture I have...I show it to everyone who tries telling me I need help. It says on the side I dont need therapy, This is my therapy, its become my like motto. and you're totally right about that...and with people cutting just for attention/no reason ect...omg that pisses me off so bad, they make things worse off for those who need it

exactly, oh my god i feel so bad but i have to go...stupid mom...she's another reason...but yah...maybe we can talk again later gotta go see ya

Okay, no problem. See ya around sonya

I could be talking rubbish, but I think alot of self harm may be because of isolation; Having nobody to confide in.

I, myself, find it difficult to explain/reveal my feelings to anybody. A trust issue, which I understand alot of people seem to have. Living in solitude, nobody who understands or even has the time or will to want to help, past experiences with abuse, deceit, betrayal etc- Reliving those memories/nightmares, heart break- which in its own is a source of betrayal, constant dissappointment, self-pity; Any number of reasons.

The majority of people find it easier to keep hidden everything they feel from everybody else because people have no time for them. I myself see it as me becoming a burden when I reveal my feelings. Keeping it hidden seems like the easier, safer option. Call me a coward, but opening up requires strength I don't posess.

What people feel isn't necessarily how they WANT to feel, but It's how they feel. Infact, most feelings aren't how people would prefer to feel, but they deal with it. How they choose to deal with it is their decision. Just because people can't comprehend it, doesn't make it wrong. It's just a different way of coping.

Just my thoughts..

Take care.
All my love,
Laura.

Umm, which part?