alone and jealos

im yet sad and happy
im happy cause all my friends have a guy that really cares about them
but i dont and i havnt for a while
And i just really want somebody by my side
and couple of guys come around def. not alot but they never seem to be ok for me i loose my chances but then i didnt wnt them then and im afriad ill take the first thing that comes by and itll end me up alot worse of were i am. i gues that im jealos of my freidnds...and i cant talk to thwm about it either
i just want somebody to call my someone :(