break up poem. Saying goodbye to Nothing

Break ups
having your heart stomped on
thrown away like old newspaper starting a fire
remembering to have the memories smack you in the face
drunken text messages
late night calls
crying in the corner
hiding from reality
shake after miserable shake
no more good times
no more wild sex
no more late night night talks about the future
she left and didn't even give a good excuse
she stole all your joy
she ruined your wonderful day
why why why
reasons will never be explained
you will never feel like you once felt
i hate all of this and want to die
rip the flesh from my tear soaked face
drown in the puddle at my feet
or dive head first into the concrete
i could bleed all the pain from my wrists
or put holes in the memories with steal from a barrel
i could but don't have the strength to do so
cant bring myself to escape the misery
so i put my life in the hands of a bottle
put it to my lips
suck down the cold brew that defines my life
i don't want to see anyone ever again
the world isn't bright and warm
its filled with darkness and cold
ice breathed down upon us
frozen icicles stuck on the path to the end
were we melt and flood the rest
wash me away now
take my emotions
make me robotic
i don't want this weight
i cant bare this stress
questioning
remembering
never forgetting