Need ADVICE and FAST!!!

I agree with Angelina. If your relationship is going to endure then you need to clear the air and to both be honest about whatever has taken place in the past. Then maybe you can chart a new course for the future.

You say you love each other, but love alone is not enough to sustain a long term relationship or marriage. If you can't mutually come to terms with the problems you have that are causing all the continuous upheaval, I'd suggest you break it off. Or at least, that is what I would do. Life's too short to go on enduring years of repetitive distress in a relationship.