i feel horrible?

in past few days i feel even more and more horrible as things begin to get worst (i had a thought that my boyfriend might be cheating on me when some slut was hanging onto him at the mall and kissed him?) x.x

anyways... i finally thought a bit and put some of my feelings and reactions into words and poems;

Myself i hate
Security
Regrets
Sanity
State of mind

i'd really appreciate it if you could comment and tell me what you think of any of them or any other of my poems. I will try to return favours as soon as possible but i am trying to figure things out quickly to make christmas a merry one and i have to work too x.x;; but... anyways.. yea

thanks
-kelsie

Hey,
I just read your stuff, and it makes me sad. There is a few things you need to remember. The whole boyfriend/girlfriend thing is overrated at your age, and there are far worst things than break ups. I have learned that. I have talked to people in worst situations. I don't mean cutters either, they put than upon themselves for the most. I mean people who come from a war torn country and had to survive. But I understand your pain, and I am here to help. Make use of it? Take care though.

Darien

i read some hun i am sooooo veery sorry, if you ever need to talk to some one feel free to email me up.

Wow I just read those and they are very good. You are going to have to just stay strong. You and *him* can get through this! I hope for the best.

aww... :)

thanks :) but i think you can't really put an age on love? but i agree that most relationships are overrated... i may be silly, but i don't think this is one of them... anyways... i hope i can get through this with him too... :) but he thinks i don't believe hi, which actually all i wanted was for him to tell me he loves me, and it would be the end of me freaking out... but i guess i freaked out too much even before that... i'm not even sure what happened, the entire time i've known him (maybe except the first month or so) i've believed in him and trusted him... but it just seemed so weird when my friend saw him at the mall... and he definitely saw my friend too x.x

anyways.. i guess whats important is that i need to focus on a merry christmas... happy 16th birthday for me, happy 18th birthday for him x.x...