Am I in Love?

I'm not sure of what to do Run Back or Run Away.

I have been basically seeing this guy since may 5 2005 at around 7:00 p.m. .........I know sad that I almost know the exact time.lol anyways....I think I love him but honestly am scared to death. we broke up Dec. 1 and it was over an argument about different religions(he's christain and I'm a Satanist).....and the fact that I cut myself again the week before......he was really upset and we have talked or even seen each other since.....my birthday was Dec. 7th and he called and told me he wanted me back and that he loves me so much......I hung up on him......I think I'm in love with him but I think I feel I don't want to get to close to him since people seem to leave me......like my two brothers......my father......and mother...
I don't know what to do I feel horrible and angry at myself...........

i have to agree with bob.

Emma

i agree with bob...

and i believe if you even have to ask the question, then its not true. if you have to ask if youre in love or not, i dont think its real.

you should know completely that you are.

but thats just my opinion

i DISAGREE with Bob.......

Okay sorry i just wanted to break the chain of i agrees with bobs , i do agree with bob .

ye i guess im going to have to to. religion is no reason to argue in the 1st place, wars all over the world are occuring because of it and i dont think its right. if you loved him you wouldnt hang up on him either!

Just gotta say. When you're in love you should know, and wouldn't have to ask other people if you are.
Yes I guess I do agree with Bob and say that no you are not in love...

Laterz,
Shirlz.

thanks everyone........
However ever since that night he cried....(no he's not normally a crier but for some reason he did)
I havent't cut since........
and I feel I am but it also feels that in a way I don't want to believe I am.

does that change anything?

I agree with bob.
Yes, I'm going to be a conformist, just this once.

But aside from that. not saying that people of two different religions dating is horrible, but when it's religions of that extreme, it does make it a little more difficult.

Don't know what else to tell you.
other than: It's doubtful that you are in love.

I agree too...religion does't go between in love.... the cutting thing...not quiet sure. Iknow some ppl that hate themselfes but r in love with another person. But idk....I might be wrong...^^

(Random) Let me guess, he said that Satinism is wrong because "you worship the Devil?" Ppl shouldn't skip to conclusions when they dpn't know about the religion!

Srry srry srry.....future srry's if I screwed up some how....

well.. i think how just people answer now is somewhat influenced by their religion too?i believe that we can love someone else more than we lover ourselves, and sometimes we just can't really think straight, making us want to do stupid things like suicide, or break up over small things...

i can't answer your question directly but i believe that if it is love that u two will be able to work things out eventually, he took a step, and ur afraid to reach out for him now? i knew its scary, but sometimes if you don't let go to try, it'll haunt u forever...

anyways... i just think this because december was also horrible for me and my boyfriend, i guess we kind of rushed into things to make x mas a merry one, but now problems and confusion are coming back to him... i think its mainly cause i thought he was cheating on me when my friend saw him at the mall with some girl kissing him but x.x...

love sucks, love is complicated, but i believe that love can help us become better people if we are willing to love, be loved, how to make things better for the ones or things we love in this world...

but anyways, good luck? i don't really agree with anyone too much cause basically i've went through something like that, possibly still am, but i'd try to not let him break up with me if i know that he loves me, and that i love him, if staying together will make him happy?
in the other point of view though, if you cut urself, the other person will feel insecure and helpless, hurt, mad at themselves because they can't make their bf/gf feel happy, safe, and make sure they stay healthy and well... and being in that position... hurts a lot...

i've never been really mad at my boyfriend ever since i met him over 2 years ago, even when he lied to me about cheating with someone else? but i got so mad, when he started to push me away, more and more each day for over 2 weeks, he was depressed and wouldn't really talk to anyone, eventually one night when i tried to talk to him, he slit his arm with his pocket knife, basically diagonally right down his arm, his friends found him and he passed out right there, and he stayed at his friends house that night. in the morning... he overdosed and they found him again... its all over now and he stopped hurting himself (physically) to a point where he may die... but hes still hurting himself emotionally and physically if its really horrible for him, but at a much lesser degree, like playing soccer even though hes supposed to be resting x.x

anyways... its just something to think about, something i feel like i should share with you and hopefully will help you figure things out and maybe you can make things bettter between you two? really, personally sometimes i really think that religions are a bit too extreme... but... they're ok sometimes, just that being aethiest may just simplify quite a few things in life...

but yea, hope this helps you a bit? feel free to send me message if you like
-kelsie