To all whom suffer from Eating Disorder (E.D)

hello. my name is meg and im a fourteen year old girl whos been anerexic since i was twelve. i have been mentally drained and am physically tired. im weak and eating makes me sick. my friends dont totally understand yet i truely need someone to talk to, who knows what its like to feel left out and alone. My E.D (eating disorder) controls my every blinking movement. i cry, for i suffer from depression, i cry because, even though i have a boyfriend and friends that somewhat care, i feel totally and utterly alone. ok i started being anerexic in the begining of my 7th grade year due to, a boy, yes a boy. a boy whom i was love with uncontrolably. this 'boy' said he love me, he loved my laugh and my personality was perfect, yet he said there was one thing for him to date me, i was 'too chubby and fat'. it crushed me, for i was 'chubby', but dropped almost seventy pounds in six monthes. soon my arms and legs were weak, for i starved myself, to make him like me, to make myself 'beautiful for him'. =`(. i have no energy and force myself to eat every day. yet i think im slowly slipping into another strand of worsening anerexia. my boyfriend would kill me if he were to find out, and my mother would put me in a hospital. yet i know i can over come it again. i have had anerexia for two years, one year it was bad, very bad, then the next year it was o.k. but now its worsening... i need someone to talk to, read my poem talk to me over the comments. =)

i have been there and experienced all those feelings...but I found I was trying to control my weight becuz I felt like I could not control anything else in my life...the best thing to dois go see a specialist about the depression and any other abnormal psychology issues.
Once you do that and get on medication you will start to feela lot better...not cured but more like your old self again.
Speaking from experience yo will still have to try toget your anorexia under control but the meds help to clarify reality....just like any other addiction in the world.....if not you will waste away and leave your loved one behind to deal with it all....not a pretty sight.