HELP.. WAS iiT Mii FAULT??

ii was sexually abused for three years ii was raped last year.. ii was put in a mental hospital when ii was young coz i kiilled my younger brother and ii personally thiink they made a miistake by leting me out.. my bestmates boyfriiend cheated on her WiiTH ME... and my boyfiiend never gets to hang out wiith hiis friiends anymore.. coz they hate me.. i should love mii liife as i have a few supportive friiend a boyfriiend that loves me.. but stiil ii wanna diie more than anythiing iin the world.. ii obsess about iit... but stiil iim here.. and ii dont know why????

Oh my that took a long time to read. I don't think I've ever seen double "ii"s before.

Of course you know why you are still here... You don't actually want to die.

But you do seem to have alot of problems.. maybe you should talk to some one?

That hurt my eyes. Type properly in future. you KILLED your brother? Why have you been let out? If you feel it was such a mistake, resubmit yourself.

As to your post, you have no idea how selfish you sound! Some people have no friends, no boyfriend, and are still raped every day. Yet they deal with it. You're not the only one who has been raped/sexually abused. And besides, you don't really want to die. Otherwise you would have done it.

hei don't get soo rude on her...she's confussed..and she needs help that's y she typed soo like that..

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hei i think you'r living co'z the god's givin you a chance..

a chance to change your self..

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you said u killed your bro..why?..and how old were you?..
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does your parent's love you..?
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wat i think you should do is...change your self..,tell me y doesn't your BF friends like you?...y?..
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there' were a lot going on wid you..now i think it's time to change..your self..,,..

tell me do u really want to die?...
even if you do die...how will you face your family in heaven..dat is if you can go...
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the god has given you a chance to change yourself, and forget the past,..about the bad things...
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dis much from me..
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ani wayZ about that rape one..did they caught that guy?...

Because your advice is so much better.

Dwelt - I agree. I sincerely hope you don't TALK like that. So i'm sure it's not hard to type the correct words as they come into your head!

That was my reaction. Except the original poster doesn't seem to be replying ...

Wow... =/

All I have to say is, you don't honestly want to kill yourself. If you really did, you wouldn't be telling people, you'd just do it.

i want to kill myself... by eating a lifetime supply of nachos all in one day.. is that possible? hahaha ahm..

if you were abused for three years, should've reported it.

if your friend's boyfriend cheated on her with you, you should have confessed it or not done it since you knew it was wrong.

if you killed your brother you shouldn't leave the mental hospital because that is such a cruel thing to do. you heartless -----.

go fix your life instead of posting here that you want to die.

what is ur guyz' prob?!!!! this site is supposed 2 b were u can go 2 get help not 4 u spil bout stuff thats important 2 u just 2 get nagged at!!!!!!!
u guyz have nerves cuz i hope u dont talk like this to other ppl u live round bu ti guess that xplans alot! u guyz r miserable & 2 make u feel better u treat other ppl as bad as you feel!!!!!

to the original poster,
i don treally know what to say xept if u wanna talk im here, just go 2 my page &we can talk, k? i hope u feel better babe!!! just remember u obviously have ppl who care 4 u, not evry1s like sum of the JERKS here!!! :)

Right... first of all... everyone type normally please! with the two's and the four's and the double ii thing and the cuz, xept etc. very confusing.

First of all what I would like to say to the original poster.. If you think it was a mistake to let you out of the mental hospital, then you should talk to someone and get re-admitted.
secondly.. you should report whomever raped and has been abusing you.
third and final thing.. what kind of a best friend do you think you are? sleepin with her boyfriend?? I don't think you deserve to call yourself her best friend and personaly I hope she hates you for doing that.

o and don't kill yourself.. peace

what is ur guyz' prob?!!!! this site is supposed 2 b were u can go 2 get help not 4 u spil bout stuff thats important 2 u just 2 get nagged at!!!!!!!

^^^This site is for poetry. :]

^^ Agreed.

bump

get a therapist.

kill ur bro? holy [beep]................................

Oh my =/

-Jenna.

That is a really hard thing to put on a discussion board.
They were not wrong to put you out, because you obviously want to make up for the wrong you did, even if you dont realize it yet.
It was bad that you killed your brother, but that wasnt entirely your fault. My theory is that when you were sexually abused and raped, it scarred you, and you wanted to get back at the world for being so horrible to you. But was killing your brother really worth it? your family is probably scared to death of you, and your friends are probably scared, too, not only for themselves but for you. If you did this once, are you going to do it again?
You are saying you know you have a loving boyfriend and caring friends. But you are also saying that you want to die more than anything. What does this say to me?
It says that you arent obssessing about wanting to die. You are obsessing about what has happened to you and what it has caused you to do.
Why arent you dead yet? Because whoever controls the world does not want you to die. Mother Nature knows that there is good in you, and your heart is still pure. You can do great things, and once you have, you will die peacefully.
Why arent you commiting suicide if you want to die? It's because you dont want to die. In the deepest depths of your mind, there is a little voice speaking that is trying desperately to reach you, before its too late: don't die, you want to live, to something good to make up for the bad.
And doing something good to make up for the bad isnt that hard; you dont have to join a church group (i know i wouldnt--i dont even believe in god), and you dont have to adopt a million homeless african children to make up for what you did.
Just think good thoughts. think of what you have and what you dont have; what you have will outweigh what you dont have, believe me.
youre a good person with a pure heart. you just need to realize that. ^_^

~ Jesus loves you, my friend. Thats all I have to say. There is a reason for you to be here...stop dwelling on the negatives, and make things right with yourself, your family, and with God.

"Someone loves you, even when you don't think so. Don't you know, don't you know...you've got me AND Jesus!!"

God Bless

I find it extremely sad and sick that you would write something like this. In my eyes this part of the site is for people who actually DO NEED help. You seem to be begging for attention. (Lord forgive me if I am wrong.) Remember that our world does not revolve around YOU...don't take away the help one of your peers from this site may need. By streeeeetching your circumstances to be absolutely UNBELIEVABLE you're taking something away from someone else. Next time you make such a ridiculous post please remind yourself of the other teenagers within this site and even this WORLD who need REAL help!!