Normal?

How much random sadness and douses of hopelessness is normal? I’m usually a very happy person, some one who enjoys her self easily, but lately out of nowhere I’ve been feeling down. The other day I was at a dance, I really didn’t know anyone there, as I’m new here, but I was feeling very accepted and happy, I was having a great time. I stopped dancing for a second, stepped back, and I felt like I was going to cry. I knew that the emotion of totally out of place, I should have been happy but some thing in me just wasn’t… I ended up going into the empty bathroom and hopping it’d pass over, but I was tempted out by voices and ended up heading back to the dance floor… Still feeling bad.

Lately I’ve been busying myself with things, trying to focus on the positive, but about a month ago I had a few straight weeks of staying up late, in my room, shaking, crying, and being unhappy, I was fine during the day, it was just when I was alone with my own thoughts that I broke down. I really don’t think I have anything to be unhappy about, my life is going good, I’m doing okay in school so far, and I’m making friends…

My mother told me that bipolar runs in my family, but I’ve checked the symptom list over and over and over again, and I don’t think I’d be serve enough for that. I’m not suicidal, the only time I ever considered it was when I was a good big younger, like ten years old or some thing… Even then I knew I’d never be able to follow through with it, and it just seemed pointless. I’m a hopeful person, kind, out going, smart if I dare say so myself, and I’ve been told multiple times that I’m pretty… Even with my family’s custody battle, I live a good life, and shouldn’t be worrying about feeling hopeless… I have support, they’re just blind to my sad moments, and I don’t want to bother them, I never want to bother them

While writing this I’m using a second account, my first is more for making friends and cheering people up, this is for asking for help.

I appreciate any help you’re willing to give, even if it’s just to stop complaining, that it’s normal, and that I need to tough it out and live my life.

well, you said you dont think you have anything to be unhappy about, but are you sure? you also said it only happens when you think. Is there a reoccuring thought that keeps coming back? There may be something small bothering you that you don't notice.

If you ever need to talk though, I'm available to listen. my email is in my profile(send message).

It's not just when I think, I don't think I was thinking at the dance... Just enjoying myself.

Hormones?

Kalika