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my axxiety is really bad today and i still sick from it and the stress stuff i didn't even know it could make u sick lol well yeah i have to go see my therapist next week i think i think my mom wants me to get a stronger axiety medication ^_^ i hate them lol they don't even really work that well at least the ones i am using don't lol plus i really was looking forward to not going to child devel. T^T oooo welllll lol so r u gonna go with alicia or nikki?

if i do go somewhere its deff alicia she invited me first and its for her birthday are you going skating with us tonight? if we do go...I'm just having a really really...bad day...i even almost just started crying in french...lol...im a baby..

i cried in math lol i don't know why either well i know y but... it was still weird i've been feeling funny and yeah i was plannin on going with u guys to the skating thingy that is if ur still gonna go lol but yeah i don't know i'm gonna go home and yell at my dad lol and i am really hungry lol but yeah idk y r u having a bad day???

oh so your not gonna go to my house...until later right?lol
Ummm well first i'm really really really tired.... Last night i was out at the skatepark with alicia and them haha and guess who happened to walk by???
Guess
Jeff....haha alicia and my sister both go hey look who that is and they go hey jeff do you know this girl with the red hair and he didnt say anything and they go she really likes you and wants you to go to homecomming with her i was never so embarrassed in my life....lol
but anyways i've been crying this morning because i've been thinking about derek...again....ya know i looked at myself and said why can other babies be born and derek couldn't live longer....ugh...it's so stupid but it had me crying all morning...

oooo i'm sorry..... yeah i've been thinkin about sad and bad stuff too and i'm srry but i think the whole jeff thing is pretty funny lol

ya..and i miss johnny too...hahaha and i'm like no i didnt say that because they're like steph wants to know if you'll go to the dance with her...

lol but the thing is..i'd feel a little awkward going with him considering he doesn't really know me that well and i barley know him hahaha....

And ya my mom says hey steph if you wait after school you can see Zac outside running without a shirt on...haha it was hilarious

And he wouldn't go to the movies with us...it'd be extremely awakward on him...

Lol i just can't go up to his door...being hisneighbor..and go hey want to go to the movies with use....wierd...haha

lol yeah i guess ur right lol and i saw him runnin one time but he had his shirt on though his outfit reminded me of the one that gaygod wears in that thing i showed u lol it was the same colors too and he had on short shorts lol i was like woooo lol well yeah anywayz yeah i feel sick too and i don't feel good but we only have acouple classes left though lol

ya i dont feel that hot anyways.....haha

are you serious??? did he look sexy in them?? i bet he did :D....hah i wanna see i wanna see!! you don't think hes gay right?? i hope not cause i want him to be mine... :D hes sooosoosoos sexy :D!!

i am sorry but i serioulsy think that he is gay he might not be but i don;t know i think he is y don't u ask him???? lol jk jk

hhahaha me ask him really?? i'll do it right now!!

fine then do it lol

hahaa....i can't he'll look at me funny why can't you??

becua u just said that u would do it sooo do it! lol i triple dare u!!!

i can't hahahahah...he's my neighbor...and he's really hot!! that'd be so awkward!!
ahahhahah

soo what if its awkward i do those kinda things all the time lol so dot it!!!!!!!!! lloll i can;t spell today

NICOLE IS MAKING ME REALLY REALLY ANGRY LATLEY AND I EVEN GOT MAD WHEN SHE WAS CRITIZING U BECUZ OF HOW U WANNA DO UR HAIR!!! AND JOHNNY TO...no offense to nicole but she doesn't even know him the way u do so she can't say anything i mean i would get mad if she called kyeong an asshole becuz she doesn't know him either!! >_< grrrrrrrr it's makin me mad.. and michelle said it too...

I know michelle stood up for me,she's like stephanie you should do your hair orange i think it'd look cool and nicole just gave her a wierd look because the other day i was talking bout how i wanted to dye my hair orange and you weren't at school in u.s history and nicoles like ewww thatd be ugly just stick with the reds and purples and then after class michelle came up to me and said don't listen to nicole she's just being nicole you should dye your hair orange it might look good and then today when we were talking about guys she looked at me and said thats why you dont tell nicki about your boyfriends/crushes and if looks could kill hahahhahahah that was great she's pisses me off she needs to worry about her self and not me!! so how's your day?lol do you really ythink he likes me?? thatd be a good thing if he did hes amazingly cute :D....and he's my neighbor :D well kinda hahaha and i've thought he was cute since he came here...idk...hmmm...what should i do???lol

talk to him... lol that's the first thing and yeah michelle is not as bad as nicole i mean sometimes she can piss me off to but i know i piss them off a lot soo yeah i just don'r want nikki worrying about me either she's just like do ur work and all that shit she's worse then my mom ok? lol and that's pretty bad my mom even told me to tell her to shut up next time she said something like that to me lol she was like don't take shit from no one! lol it was funny yeah i was gonna explode on her when she was like so u guys gonna do ur work i started at her and then i was just like... whatever look and i think she could tell cuz she looked at me like she wanted to kill me but u know what i don't ask her did u do ur work y don't u? and shit like that it's fuckin retarded and i am sick of it... next time she does it i'm gonna be like.. ummm i'll do my work when i want to and u should just worry about urself not me... becuz i am soo sick of her bs. and she called kyeong an asshole to becuz of this whole thing and i know he's being an asshole but she doesn't even know him and she was saying all this bad shit about him.. like she knew him and i was like...uhhh yeah sure... but it made me mad...>_< so how r u?

What am i suppose to say to him?? lol and ya nicole was calling johnny an asshole and he isnt not even close she doesn't understand him..she doesn't even know him...maybe i'm doing the something wrong...whcihc i don't think i am it's totally him but that doesn't give her the right to judge him!! but i'm doing alright i guess...did you want to see baby mikey today??

i can't i'm grounded....>_< and yeah just be like hi lol

Hhahaha very funny you retard!!!!oo he is smexay:D...and ugh my sister is here

lol yeah well.... I WANT TO CUT MY HAIR RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHA wow... i'm tired

Wow your a retard...hahah i'm just kidding...
Boy is he smexay :D :D*thinks*...how am i gonna talk to him...??? ugh...lol

say hey what's up? or as k him a question like did we have hw in histroy? lol something retarded like that hahah

But i'm not a retard...

and ur callin me one....? WAHHHH !!! u r a mean mean mean mean mean mean mean thingy !!1

Hahaha I LOVE YOU KIMMY :D!!!

HIII!!!!!

Hey Kimmy!!! What Ya Doing??

nothing just deleting stuff lol ^_^ what about u?

hahhaha nothing just reading some more post!! how's your day going???..so ya...I think Johnny is crawling back to me...ugh..

ooo well .. just talk to him like normal...OR!!! ignore im kinda like he ignored u!! that way if he says hi u can just be like.. oh hey... like whatever and he'll totally crawl back to u HAHAH!!! DO IT! DO IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 >_

You want him to crawl back to me??

YEAH like not crawling but do he can know how much pain u went thru when he was ignoring u!!! HAHAHAH!!!! PUT IT BACK IN HIS FACE!!! HAHAHAHAH DO IT!!!! it'll be sooo funny...-_-* lol he won't even see it coming!!! KARMA COMES BACK AROUND JOHNNY!!! HAHAHAH hheheheheh srry i'm really weird today ^_^

Hahahaah...He's So...Amazing...I Can't Help But Care About Him Ya Know..I've Tried..But I Can't....Lol Hopefully He Cares About Me Now!! :D....Any Maybe He Actually Posted Back To Me On My Myspace I'll Have To See When I Get Home... :D So....What Ya Doing Today?? Afterschool?? Did You Want To Go To The College Fair?? Or No..??

yeah we should go it'll be fun lol what time is it? of course i have to ask my apa becuz he is home today so i hope he says i can go he's been really uggghhh lately when it comes to letting me go places this week

Its 7-9 at unh it shall be interesting and ya i hope your dad says you can go....hahha Zac and Frank are complete hotties :D and JOHNNY IS SOOOO SMEXY :D

wow lol ur special i really don't wanna go to english i don't mind child deve. as much becuz i just sit there and doodle hehehe ^_^

Hahaha i don't care bout spanish i got michelle in there and i can talk to her!! :D and then i have chorus and that's pretty self explanitory

hahahaha fuck u lol jkjkjkjkjk u know i