I Wish..I Had...

You Guys... I Need...Help...I Don't Know What To Do... The Guy I Like...I Thought He Liked Me Backed...Has Been Ignoring Me Latley..Now That He Has A Girlfriend...Ummm And My Friend... I Don't Know If Anyone Remember's This But Derek Johnson...Died..In May And I Miss Him Terribly...They Had A Concert At My School Last Night For Him...But I Didn't Go Because I Didn't Think I Could Take...It And Now I'm Regretting Not Going...They Had A Slideshow Of Him And Tons OF Sad Songs...For Him..It's Not That I Didn't Want To Go It's Just That I Didn't Think I Could Handle It Considering He Was My Boyfriend At One Point...And I Kinda Still Loved...Him...And We Were Best Friends Other Wise....Ugh...I Miss Him So Much...And I Should've Went...I Should've And They Are Going To Seel The Dvd's Of Last Night Show And Of Course I'm Gonna Get One Because...You Know I Want To See How It Was....And Then Tomorrow Is His Birthday...Tomorrow He Was Suppose To Turn 17...Ugh..I Miss Him So Much...And I Still Haven't Got The Courage To Go To His Grave Yet...I'm Such A Loser...I Don't Know What To Do...I Find Myself Crying A Lot About Him...Ugh...How Can I Try To Get Rid Of Thinking About Him All The Time? Or Excepting That He's Dead...Or Something...Because It's Making Me Depressed...All The Time....
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Steph

One can make one's self depressed sometimes. Focus on the positive. I know easy to say when one is not depressed.

aaww..dat's soo sad!!..hope you'd recover you pain soon...

i know you feel regereatfull for not going to the concert..which was..wateva..

but i'm glad you didn't went..and i no you feel regreatful..but i think you did the right thing..co'z if you'd been there all you'd do is sheared more tears..which is not good for your health..

well i aien't no good help..but goody luck on ur comming future..and forget that boi you talked about dat who u kinda loved and he loved you back....

be happy/smile always i'm, sure you BF wants you to be happy..allday even without him there for you..and hope you'll find a new best friend..even tho he/she won't take you bf's place..

P:S..B HAPPY IN UR COMMING LIFE..FOR I'M SURE THAT'S WHAT'S HE WANTS..

p.p.s how did he died?..sori to ask..

...no it's alright he died...in his sleep...from an enlarged heart....hmmmm i went to see him today....i couldn't handle it and i just broke down and cried....hmmm
well thanks...guys
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Steph

Wow that's a lot of "..."'s,

Im with taylor why post it in this forum

Well you're not dead darling and I know the pain of loss hurts like hell, but eventually once you accept it you will move on and use the gift of life you do still have to the best of your ability.