3yrs later & the first time ill c him

well todays the day and im so scared...johnny killed himself 3 yrs ago today and im going to c him*his grave* for the first time...im scared...i miss him so much.any advice or thoughts.i just feel alone.

I don't know what to say hun =(
Just stay strong for him and yourself and know he's smiling down on you.
My thoughts are with you sweetie
*Gem*