hurt for the 11th time

Gosh! iam sure most of these gurls on here know what iam feeling or gosh i atleast hope someone does. I don't know what to do anymore! You love someone so much and you put everything out there for them and even your life you risk it all for him and after 4 years of being off and on and him always cheating on me and breaking up with me and then wanting me back after a few months! and him saying he loves me but if he loved me would he break my heart 11 times? but then again another part of me is saying maybe we do love each other..bc why do we keep getting back together but the other part of me is like well u are his lil rebound bitch it just hurts so much and I have told him and he always says he srry but does it again! I dont know what to do! gosh.....i feel...worhtless...if anyone can give me some advise id that love it!

leave him, you know it's the SIMPLE solution, so do it.
you're basically giving him your heart & saying "Here you have it, and you can break it, and I won't leave".
you're setting yourself up again and again, and it's your own decision, so maybe instead of coming here and asking for help, when you already have the answer in your hands, you could go and DO it, so that you wouldn't have a pointless complaint to make, as there wouldn't BE one. kyeah?x

Eleven times?!

WHY are you still with him?!

Yes, I think you need to realise now he's not the one for you. Drop him sweetie and find someone who deserves you.

Are you insane ?
DROP THE MAN . I know letting go is hard -- Trust me, I understand . But leave him . He doesn`t deserve you . ELEVEN TiMES ? Jeez girl .
..__MiNDYY

11 times?!?!.... right, hun the other half of you saying that you are his last resort is the right half. You deserve better. Don't take a back seat to anyone!!!!! So kick his cheating, lying a*s to the curb!!!!!!! You deserve SOOOOOO much better than that!! You should have left him for good the first time!

Hun, you need to have more self worth than that...

By letting him slide with his behavior.. how many times? Eleven?.. By letting him do the whole cheating and lying thing to you eleven times, you've gotten him used to getting away with being an a$shole without consequences. Think about it:
People say men are like dogs. Truth is, this is more true for some people than one would think. What I mean is, you have to TRAIN THEM. I know it sounds wierd and completely demeaning, but just go with this analogy..

You get a puppy (all cute and cuddly, yes.). You plan to raise him to be a loyal, well behaved companion, but from day one, you can't help but let him sit on the furniture and eat from the table. (Just because he's sooo cute)

However, you begin to realize that it is getting harder and harder to make him behave. Its getting out of control. He chews up your designer shoes, digs up the potted plants, and completely ignores your commands. It is because you have let him be the dominant one in the relationship. He KNOWS that he can get away with whatever he wants because of your initial reactions.

Its the same with this guy. He KNOWS that he can do whoever he wants, break your heart, ect and not feel bad about it because he KNOWS that in the end, you wont be able to say no.

You can't change him. Its too late for that. You shouldn't have let him have a second chance, let alone a tenth one. You may love him, but he certainly doesn't love anything but himself. Period.

Wow..
I'm going through the same thing..
I've only been hurt by him 6 times though..
you've got me beat..
but i think this last time was really the last time.
you should end it..stop talking to him completely.
and i know its hard but try to forget about him
in the end thats whats best and whats going to make you happy even if you don't think so now
you're going to cry a lot..you're going to wish you hadn't of ended it..you're going to want to call him up and tell him back..you're going to want to write him letters and send him emails and when someone mentions him it will still hurt but it has to be done..eventually everything will get better..
hurting you one time was one time too many
11 times is just insane..
say goodbye to him
and begin moving on

oh my gosh you sound like a great and true loyal person and he so doesnt deserve you. Leave him for your own good for petty sakes. Dont feel worthless he should feel ashamed having a girl who is trully loyal and breaking her. Why if I had a girl with so much loyalty Id stay with her for the rest of my life. HEs and idiot know that. Not you him. Leave him alone his is so not worth it.