My Grandmother (looking for someone to talk to)

My grandmother has been really sick for a couple of years now and its worsened in the past couple of months, the nurses say that she is approaching death. I don't know what to do anymore. Whenever I go to visit her I just remember the day that they told my family that and then for some reason I want to leave. I don't like seeing her and knowing that its never going to get better. I would preferably not remember her as she is now, but as that strong woman that I remember from my childhood.

The only problem is that when I don't go to see her I feel guilty and then get extremely depressed. I feel like I'm abandoning her in her time of need and I don't want to do that. What should I do? It seems like either way I take this I'm not going to win and my heart is still going to get ripped to pieces.

Alyson

I visit her when I can, but it never seems like its often enough. I know that she deserves for me to be there more and I want to be, I just can't make myself see her the way she is more then I can handle. The rest of my family is up at her house everyday caring for her and making sure that shes ok, sometimes I help and sometimes I think of an excuse not to go. I think that this is wrong. Am I right?

I had this two months ago with my nanna and she died..
So i know what you're going through
I don't like talking about it in public though, my email is on my profile if you want to talk. I can give advice through emails if you want.
*Gem*

I'm very sorry to hear your Grandmother is sick. Mine is also, she's got ovarian cancer and is on her 6th series of chemo treatments. She had a heart attack at the beggining of the year and suffers from mild dementia now. I try to visit her as often as I can, a bit hard at the moment as we live 6 hours apart but I cherish every moment with her. Spend as much time as you can with your Grandmother. You won't regret it and she will also cherish every moment as well. *Big hugs for you* If you ever need to talk to someone just send me an email I would be very happy to listen and help.