Black and White

Did you ever just feel like a black and white face in a technicolor world? you either stand out too much, or dont stand out enough.

that is how i feel right now. i just came to a realization: I'm lonely. and not just in my friendship life. I'm in a different state from everybody else and i cant even find my way to my other friends. In my relationships as well though; this guy who ive already dated asked me to go back out with him, and i really dont know: should i say yes or no? i cant think of any BAD reasons to say yes, but i cant think of any GOOD ones either. I'm stuck, floating in midair, a parachute caught in a tree with nobody to cut me down....

If you read all of this, or not, i guess I'm not looking for advice, just friends. a shoulder to lean on, somebody to talk to in a time of need. is anybody listening?

It sucks don't it?
When you have that restless. Almost panicky feelings hanging over you.
I have felt this way before.
And I know it sucks!

My shoulder is here for you.

Thanks. i feel kinda bad for dumping all my stuff on everybody else.

*Shrugs* We all do it at one point.

Sometime's the problems in life are just to hard to carry by our selves.

True. and im glad there are people here who are willing to listen...

Always:)

I kinda coming out of a state of oddness now.

:D Perhaps it's cause you know someone understands what your going through- that they them self went through it. Perhaps it's because you begining to realize you weren't all that far away- but in arm's reach of a friend.

Gah! i shouldnt read anymore... that made me want to start crying again. but maybe thats what i need is to cry...

Aw.. I didn't want to make you cry:( Gah! Im terrible. You where just begining to feel better and I made it worse.

No its a good thing im crying; better to get it out of my system now than to let everybody else in my house see it...