Staying Strong, And Moving On

Now here is a story of someone who used to be just a girl
So if you have a minute come with me, step into her world
There was once when she thought the pain would always last
Maybe you're a little confused..let's go back to the past

Growing up she constantly argued with family and friends
Lost count of the times she wished for her life to end
Arguments with mum often escalating into physical fights
Countless times sat in her room wishing things to be alright

Couldn't run to dad, for he clearly didn't want her in his life
Surely she was to young to become engulfed in such strife
Then mother met someone, fell for his snake like charm
Unaware he was about to bring them horrendous harm

Couldn't get what he wanted so he had resorted to rape
Tell me, just how much more pain could that little girl take?
Didn't know what to do, nor what and how she should feel
Only adamant that now she would never be able to heal

One cold cloudy day she took the sharpest razor to her wrist
Pain now overwhelming, hot salty tears had made a mist
Starting to feel drowsy as she began to cut way down deep
Silent and alone in that cold bathroom she began to weep

Drifted of to sleep that night, her wrists now running red
Misery was now to much, wishing only to be dead
Only the following day found her alive and still awake
Another pain filled day, with yet another smile to fake

Life had now became monotonous, was always on repeat
Every night sitting alone and silently drowning in defeat
Began to deal, but then she found someone else unkind
Why did people always insist on messing with her mind?

This time raped by someone she'd considered a friend
All alone dealing with heartache, again living in pretend
Fresh cuts made, new pills popped to cope with pain
How long did she have left before she finally went insane?

Finding that alcohol helped, if only for a little while
Fooling friends with that shiny fake and plastic smile
Until one day it hit her, had to start fighting back
Couldn't let them win, needed to get back on track

Things slowly began to get better, she even met a guy
Only it wasn't too long until he left her alone to cry
She'd gave him all of her trust but it was all in vain
Just another person who purposely caused her pain

So tired of the sorrow that she seemed to always take
For when he left her she felt her heart completely break
Drank to numb emotions, but it had the greatest cost
The baby she'd unknowingly been carrying was lost

More wasted tears shed over this angel's sudden goodbye
Wondering why it had been the baby and not her to die
Not long after, back with he who had broken her heart
Only for him to destroy her again just like at the start

Not too long after, discovered she's expecting again
Yet he's still playing with her mind, leaving her in pain
This time for the child, she's trying to do what's right
Trying to distance herself from him with all her might

Truth be told, she still loves him more than he'll know
She's just getting better at not letting her feelings show
And even though she still loves him with all of her heart
She's going to try her hardest to make a fresh new start

All heartache endured, her child wont go through the same
So she's closing herself of, refusing to play his games
No longer running back to him, stepping away from misery
She's going to be strong and be the best mother she can be