Not me

I'm not him, and I'm not me
Through rose-colored glasses, no one can see
My monster casts his seductive spell
and pulls me backward towards Hell

My soul is now to weak to fight
the power of his raging night
Hypnosis pulls me farther still
sapping away my own free will

No matter how I pray and cry
I know that soon they'll say goodbye

Reflecting now barely my own face
my monster's smile in my place
I don't know anymore what I need to be
when I'm not him and I'm not me