It was nothing.
Just a speck.
Though at the time it hurt like hell,
After a while you could tell,
I was over it.
There was always tension.
It was obvious.
But we were both too scared to move,
Both felt that we had something to prove.
And we both found others.
I often wonder, you know.
If you think of me now and then.
I wonder if you think of me how you did,
Long before, when we were kids.
I'd love to know.
I wish,
That I could read your mind.
Open up that head of yours and see what's there,
Just to know, if sometimes, you wish I were there.
I'd like to know.
Having said that,
What if i found nothing?
I'd probably be hurt, though I shouldn't care,
Because I've got someone now who's always there.
What if you did though?
You'll be my biggest regret,
Even if I end up happy and fulfilled.
I'll always look back, I'll always wonder,
What if? With that brown haired boy.
What if it had all gone right.
