Affects of Love

The touch of your hand on my face, so sweet, so meaningful, displaying some form of care
The strength of your arms holding me so tight, bringing warmth and security, qualities needed to ease the mind
The sensation I feel when your lips touch mine, when they gently glide all over my body
A kiss that speaks more words than spoken, revealing emotions, leading to the desire to want more
My desire grows with your gentleness increasing, forming a new, unexplainable emotion, trying to become a part of me
This part, once formed, can never be detached no matter who comes along or how far apart we become
I'm trying to fight this feeling because I don't want to be hurt by you; I don't want to be into you forever
My love for you is more than I want to endure when I know it will do nothing but bring sorrow
And when I'm crushed completely by you, my love will stop growing but will always remain in my heart, incomplete and unfulfilled
A painful reminder of my past, of what you meant to me, of what I had hoped for us to be
A sob story of how my life brightened with your presence, then years later darkened, never seeing light again
But I've noticed a change in you; it's as if you want me in more than one way
I've never seen this side of you before; unfortunately it comes and goes unexpectedly
One day it seems as if there's love in your heart for me
The next, it's as if I had to start all over because we seem to be back to where we started
I just don't understand, I don't know what should be done
I open up to you and at first you seem to be pleased and longing for more
Then you slowly pull away from me, slowly hurting me, without even knowing
I want to be the one you love, adore, and cherish every moment with
But I seem to only be the one you only want around when you can't have what you really want; I'm just there to fall back on
You take me for granted, you know no matter what; I'll always be there with love in my heart
At first you didn't know why we seemed to keep a bond between us when we were apart
Then I opened your eyes and made you realize that it was my love for you, and you responded to this by saying you loved me too
Could that be true, have you loved me for this long, secretly, and now you want to show it but refuse until I do what's in my heart
Should I disregard what you have so that I will be what you need
Would you do the same if I were with someone but we knew, with you, I should be
Do you love me enough to try and build our love, to be with me and only me, with love that lasts for eternity
I'm willing to devote myself to you, to love you and cherish you, to be your better half
But do you want me like you say you do or is this your way of showing me, we will never be
To feel you on me brings calmness and serenity, allowing me to live my dreams temporarily
All I want is your heart and in return you will have mine with my promise to give my all
But I know my want will stay just that which is why I know eventually my heart will fall
Never again wanting to know of love nor wishing on the stars that lie above
Leaving the brightness of happiness to remain in the darkness, leading to eternal death