Beautiful poetry, Yakori, you always amaze me with how you portray your feelings. I know very well what you are trying to convey here, how life can catch you off guard and how you sometimes have to struggle to come back to your normal self again.
"Relaxing my foggy mind on sofa,
I cruised in the garden of optimism"
"I sat abruptly to a blasting sound,
ripping my body as thunder galloped."
A very sharp contrast here, you managed to get the emotions across splendidly here!