My grandfather and I would emerge through the Church doors. My grandfather would say to me this is your chance to sprint and I would glance at him with a half smirk and continue walking without apprehension. My grandfather would place my hand into the hand of my future and say I wish you eternity.
Since I was old enough to speak I dreamed about the day I would meet him and he would take me away. There was a blueprint for this day in my mind. The songs, vows and dress had been recited more than I care to admit.
I would run to the car with my innocence and rice in my hair. My past, present and future beside me. He would be my soul mate without a doubt and love me unconditionally.
I agree this is every little girls dream but I believed my future was inevitable.
My grandfather didn't make it to the alter and neither did I.
Fast forward to you........ There is no doubt you are my soul mate.
You have personally held my hand and lead me halfway through hell and left me stranded facing the Satan of humanity on my own.
I've walked with you. I've ran away from you and I've chased you.
I've heard the other woman's voice on the other line full of disappointment when she found out you were mine.
I never played the songs. I never said the vows. I never wore the dress.
I have played songs to soothe myself after you broke my heart. I said the vows in a last ditch effort to save us. I wore the devastation every time you said goodbye.
I sustained your sanity and suffered my own demise.
You are my soul mate considering each moment and mile placed between us splits my heart at the rate of one mile per second until it's unbearable and consumes me to the point that I'm impaired and will not recover without you.
As I wait for your impending arrival I can feel the ambiance around me become light and I come back to life.
You arrive it's corrupt and intense but the most authentic sensation I've ever experienced.
We painstakingly navigate this broken Boulevard as if it were an addiction.
I would rather not like you let alone love you.
My conclusion is this;
Soul mates may have the honor of crossing paths on this earth. Paths cross and don't always meet up again sometimes they have different destinations.
The outside influences of this merciless world may demolish your enchantment. You may sabotage this enchanting discovery on your own and not realize it until too much time has passed.
Be satisfied you collided with the most unexplained phenomenon on this planet. You will never be exposed to this passion again. The only other option is to remain buried in the deep hole of dismay trying to find a way to make it last forever when it was only meant to be temporary.
