Remembering

I lay in bed in silence,
darkness thickening the air.
I feel the dull pain spreading,
becoming more than I can bare.

I wrap my arms around me,
try to hold the pain inside.
Thoughts of him resurface,
Memories I tried to hide.

I smile as I remember,
the way he laughed and looked at me.
Then the black engulfs my memory,
reminding what will never be.

Loneliness becomes my ally,
as I feel my heart go numb.
I whisper his name slowly,
as I pray for sleep to come.