My heart breaks reading this. And I can relate in my own way. Attempts are scary and so hard to get past once you think back. But there IS healing. We have to believe that. And yes, you ARE stronger now I completely believe that. I love the image of the phoenix rising from the ashes. Inspiring.
This piece is very strong and heart touching. Poems sometimes is the way to express our thoughts that help us relief internally. The very essence of the poem is itself a medicine not just a part of the beautiful literature. Good luck and Good job. Keep counting for tomorrow, a days lost can be recovered by a thousand days of the future. Keep believing in your self, it will unlock the possibilities.