Stephen, such a sad and longing write. Never give up searching for that light! It's there for you and your entire future is ahead of you. I know wonderful things are in store for you! I know I have said this before, but I am so happy to see you writing again. Hugs!
Thank you Brenda. Once I get my DD 214 and can grow my hair, my beard, and travel where/when I want... I think things will be a bit brighter for me. This deployment is just the last hump to that freedom, and with only 2 months left ... it's nearing its end. Thank goodness.