This piece gave me pause for thought. It is very deep woven with intricacies that are not easy to unravel on the first read.
I get the feel that the character is a Mum and that she is asking for forgiveness for no matter what the weather of life that is all that she is. That as she falls or fails she is reaching out to her own mother asking for forgiveness too. Like a recognition that you don't know what it is like to be a mum until you are one yourself and in forgiving herself she also forgives her own mother? I could be completely off base with this but that is what I derived from this piece :)
A thought provoking piece. Best wishes Milly x