I Try To Keep

I try to keep being,
As positive as I can,
But it's difficult for me,
More now than when I began,

I try to keep being happy,
But my family yells at me,
I comply with their demands,
My pain they can not see,

I try to keep looking up,
Even as I start to slip,
But when they laugh at me,
My mind can't help but trip,

I try to keep being nice,
No matter what they say,
But the words they use are harsh,
And make me hide away,

I try to keep it up,
And not let me go astray,
But their laughter haunts my mind,
In the most hurtful kind of way,

I try to keep my hope,
Even when I am put down,
I'm so used to being laughed at,
You would think I was a clown,

I try to keep alive,
As a struggle in my mind,
I think how I could end this,
And leave it all behind.